Chaotic good

Do you remember firefly?

No, what’s that?

An old sci-fi show.

What was it about?

It’s like cowboys but in space.

2 genres I’d rather skip on.

Well, just watch it.

But…

Just watch it, you know that’s how I always imagined your life to be like.

Like a cowboy in space?

Well, maybe not really cowboys, more like renegades, smugglers, thieves, they have to do odd jobs always in different planets, like retrieving some goods or robbing a train, and you also have to do many odd jobs in different countries, and many people want to kill them, same as you, and they are hunted down by the government just like you are, they have to live on the ship, they get into lots of troubles, but oftentimes they get to score some big rewards. And even though they have the proper documentation, the alliance (USA + Chinese government) will try to give them some trouble anyway, just because they can. And overall, the characters are usually just surviving in a hostile environment, but somehow, and against all odds, they always thrive, same as you do.

So same as Cowboy Beebop?

Well, yeah, but… Just watch it, you’ll thank me later.

I might give it a go, but if my life is already like that, as you say, then the show would be quite boring. I’d rather be watching something radically different, to get my head out of the mundane routines of daily life.

Good point, but you may get some new ideas.

Actually, I haven’t broken any law for many many years.

You know that’s not true, but you confuse the phrase “breaking the law” with “doing something wrong” you have very high morality issues, maybe too high, you can’t hurt animals, you can’t consciously do things that will damage the environment or some ecosystems, you can’t hurt people, you can’t use filthy language, you can’t steal, you have to take sides with the disadvantaged ones and if you see an unfair situation you can’t ignore it because you think those who ignore it are accomplices in the unfairness, so that gets you into a variety or troubles and awkward situations, you have to do the right thing, even though it makes other people feel bad or uncomfortable, you need to stand by your beliefs, and do what’s right even though it means breaking the law in the process.

Oh.

And if we start sailing deep into the seas of your past and take a trip to explore the complex machinery of your mind, we will discover, or rather come to a turning point in your life when, as a teenager, you were asked to choose and alignment when creating your first AD&D character, you chose ‘chaotic good’ and that just stuck with you for the rest of your life, turning you into a fan boy of your fictitious persona, because of the way she/he behaved in the game. So instead of molding it according to your personality, as most players do, you based your real life on a character from a game you played 15 years ago.

Oh…

That’s right, ‘oh….’

‘Chaotic good’ let me look it up..

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Here:

A Chaotic Good character favors change for a greater good, disdains bureaucratic organizations that get in the way of social improvement, and places a high value on personal freedom, not only for oneself, but for others as well. They always intend to do the right thing, but their methods are generally disorganized and often out of sync with the rest of society. They may create conflict in a team if they feel they are being pushed around, and often view extensive organization and planning as pointless, preferring to improvise.

Am I right?

Maybe, but i don’t think it’s that black and white though, we are a product of a million different variables, experiences we had and information we gathered throughout our life, you can’t blame one single life choice for all the events to come in someone’s life forever and ever.

That’s why I said it was a turning point, because that’s what turning points are, and a call you made years ago can still dictate your view of the world and society as a whole.

I’m not totally convinced, but it’s definitely an interesting idea, well worth exploring.

I think we have made some progress today.

Are we out of time?

Unfortunately yes, but it was an interesting session, looking forward to our next one

Alright.

10 minutes go

1,2,3, go!

What happened? Go where?

You have 10 minutes. 10 minutes before the internet finishes.

Finishes? What do you mean? No more internet forever?

No, just for today.

Because we have to leave in 10 minutes?

9 minutes now, go go go.

Alright, what do I do?

Just write anything that comes to mind.

Is this a test?

Yes, so you better type faster.

I don’t know, ask me something.

Is the government still evil?

You have no idea.

8 minutes.

I just write some random thoughts?

Yes, because all roads lead to Rome.

Except when they don’t.

Except when they do.

Are you still sleeping?

Yes, my consciousness is off. I’m not aware of the present, I’m a robot.

7 minutes.

Whatever, if the times runs out I’ll just continue tomorrow.

That’s not how it works.

Why not? I make the rules around here.

You have too many memories and ideas, and unfortunately, we still haven’t found a way to dump them all into a computer, so you have to type them manually.

Ok, I’ll try.

And you have to do it within the next 6 minutes.

I see… Give me a minute….

5 left

Well.. it’s my birthday today.

Really? I thought it was yesterday.

Really? I thought you had forgotten

How could I?

When in Rome…

What is it with you and Rome today?

I don’t know.

So you are 30 now.

That’s right.

4 minutes.

Oh.

Any other news?

Yes, but they will reach you gradually.

Is China still a shithole?

Last time I checked.

Do you still feel sorry for yourself?

Oftentimes, but not without first acknowledging how lame that actually is.

I guess you have come to realize that there are a dozen plausible ways in the ones you could be obliterated from this world, so you must enjoy the moment because it could be your last.

3 minutes?

That’s right.

Can’t wait for this to end.

Well, we could end it right now if you wanted to.

And what should we do the remaining 2 and a half minutes?

Not fapping, I hope…

Oh, I forgot to tell you, we’re not using that word anymore.

Why not?

We just don’t.

Who are we?

Alright, just me.

What’s the name of your city?

Gejiu, but it’s not technically MY city just yet, I just happen to be here for the indefinite future.

Same thing.

Not at all.

1 minute left.

Nice.

Any final thoughts?

Yes, when I woke up today, my head was a mess.

Alright, until next time then.

Yes.

 

 

 

Life in China

So, what’s the general sentiment at the heart of life in China?

It would be hard to say, hard to choose just feeling to represent such a vast nation’s real motivations, and it’s hard to criticize it, with the limit perspective of being generally just an outsider. We, as foreigners have heard or read most of the hardships the Chinese population has been put through, but we haven’t experienced them ourselves.

How about just one idea, of your view as an outsider, on the Chinese populace as a whole?

 

Well, it seems a great majority of people here have completely lost their goals and motivation, they just live to consume and then they die.

Is that any different from any other country though?

Probably not, probably people are the same everywhere and it doesn’t seem to be one enlightened nation where everyone’s well and happy, even financially prosperous countries seem to face lots of social problems like alcoholism and depression.

So everyone everywhere just lives to make money, then spend that money and then die? How about the artists, or the homeless, protesters, dreamers, visionaries?

I don’t know, but I have to go now.

Ok, bye.